Happy New Year

Thanks be unto God who causes us to triumph!

My theme for the past couple of years, I have been privy to God revealing new layers of this scripture for me at many different levels of my life.  I am and have been on a journey to becoming a nurse. 

Beginning January 2009, I went to college with a final intent in mind.  I had this resolve in my mind that if I didn't commit myself to this I would never become who God created, fashioned, and ordained me to be.  I had been through many things in my life and had been delayed and distracted for much of my life.  From childhood I had knowledge of my father and even knew where and how to contact him.  The thing is, during the sporadic, brief encounters I had with my father growing up, I was always disappointed. As a young adult I married a man who ended up being very similar to my mother (shhh, don't tell her I said so.  ;-)). As I began to grow in my relationship with God I grew to know more about myself and who I am.  Without turning this into a book, I'll cut to the chase and say I have been through a great deal over the span of my life.  I would not change much.  The only thing I would have done differently is I would have opened my eyes to who God made me to be earlier.  I would have had that A-Ha! moment much sooner.  However, I do love living my life now, hardship and all.  I understand that these situations are building me, making me stronger and affording me an opportunity to see a new facet of God that I wouldn't see otherwise.  I AM GRATEFUL!

Fast forward to 2014, I am a student still.  I have transferred to the college of my dreams, Mount Carmel College of Nursing.  I am living in this surreal state, on one hand I can't believe I am here and on the other hand I am coming face to face with the realization of the gravity of the role I am undertaking.  I will be responsible for the care of people in some of their most vulnerable states.  I have their life and well-being in my hands.  I CAN'T DO THIS WITHOUT GOD, I REFUSE TO.  The cost is too high.

I said all this to say, join me on this journey to Ever Reaching Life.  I will be documenting my journey the rest of the way through nursing school and my adventure into God's word to bring the two together as well as increasing my relationship with Him.  As I stated before, I refuse to do it without Him.  I need Him too much.  So come along for the journey.

Love ya!
S~

Realizations of this Mom

This may very well be the quickest post ever.  But I feel the need to get this out there.  I have come into contact with some of the most exhilarating moments and the most heart wrenching realizations of my life in the past 36 hours.

As a mother the most wonderful things you can experience is see your child experience joy; one of the most horrible things you can witness is your child experience pain.  The kind of pain that is inflicted by you.  This past weekend I was able to see both.

It was our "Not Christmas" weekend.  They were super happy because we got to celebrate each other.  The flip side of the weekend was the heart to heart talk my daughter and I had.  She expressed to me some things I had said to her that made her close off and not want to talk to me anymore.  The last thing in the world I have ever wanted to do is make an environment for my daughters to not want to come and talk to me.  The good news is we were able to talk through the situation and now we are on good footing.

She is 1 of my 3 greatest treasures!

The thing that I am most impressed by is the fact that God knew I needed to do some repair work with my girl and He blocked me going to school this semester so that I would be present and available to get the done.  So in short I am entirely thankful that I am in good with the King of all creation. He does all things well and He is lovely in my eyes.  David knew what he was talking about when he said, You are beautiful for every situation!!!

I Love YOU LORD!!!!!

New legacy

I haven't written here in quite some time. I feel compelled to today.

The other day I had what I will call a flashback. In this flashback I saw my mother at the sink as if she were washing dishes she was singing a song I remember her singing often when I was a child. The words to this song were: I know The Lord will make a way somehow, when beneath the cross I bow. He will take away each sorrow. Let him have your burdens now. When the load of life is heavy and the weight shows on my brow. He will take away each sorrow, The Lord will make a way some how.

As I began to sing the song myself I realized that I too sing that song often and I am sure it is within the earshot of my children. That's when it hit me. That's how legacy happens. At least spiritual legacy. It is wonderful to tell our children they can trust God. But when they don't see evidence of us working on trusting Him they don't have anything concrete that says to them they can trust Him. My mother passed that legacy of faith and trust in The Lord, I am doing the same. Which means my children will too. Now, don't get me wrong I don't think it's just in the singing of a song. I sing the song to remind myself not to fret or fear when things don't seem to be going well. In this song are the components if the covenant I have with the creator of the universe. When beneath the cross I bow He will take care of all that plagues my life. I know The Lord will make a way somehow. It doesn't always seem apparent to me what His plan is, the only thing I need to know is that He will work it out as long as I stay submitted and committed to the cross.  What a wonderful assurance is mine!  I love me some Jesus!!!!!

Be blessed!!!
*S*